So I am starting this little blog as a place to dump the things that are going through my head. So I guess I should put what is in my head out there then. But what is in my head? Hmm.....alot of crap.
First I am not where I want to be, second I am not what I want to be, and third I still feel alone even in a crowded room. I plan to go over these three pressing paths of thoughts and all the other fleeting trails that cross over them.
The issues I see myself having with doing this is me not just deleting my posts after I have written them or even posted them. To actually let them be seen and not try to horde the chaos to myself. For I am a greedy, self-absorbed, fearful person who revels in his own misery and delusions.
Now to what I am up to in life? That being easier to relate to others since I really don't know who I am. Currently I am a student at my local city college where I attend classes and tell people that I planning on be engineer. I say it like that because I still cant imagine actually obtaining a degree. I also a big video game enthusiast and computer geek. I have been taking graphic design classes at city and for the last few years really enjoyed messing around in illustrator/photoshop making forum signatures, site banners, and other random images. I currently live with my grandmother to insure that she has someone there, and because I have nowhere else to go right now. This is what is affording me the opportunity to attend college.
That is pretty much it, I am a miserable fellow which makes it hard to have any friends, I do have a few though. It also makes it hard to find someone who would want to be involved with you, so I am single and have been for a long while now. I also have no kids or pets, not even a house plant. I am considering a whole bunch of things though, I have this urge in me to just flee on most days. Nothing is really wrong, I just want to see and do other things then what I am doing. I am trying to temper this by making plans that make it seem as though I am preparing to have this great adventure after college.
So here are some of the things on my list for when I get my degree:
1. Visit Yellowstone
2. Visit Alaska
3. Visit Hawaii
2. Move away from California, at least to Arizona
3. Get a passport and go to Europe
4. Look into Moving to South America, possibly Argentina
5. Design and build my own house
Those are the ones that come to mind, I think that if I get most of them done I will manage to work out this antsy bug that is in me and finally be able to settle down and relax some where. Until then I plan to continue to attend college and take graphic design classes, and art classes to help quell it so I don't actually end up fleeing.
Well I don't feel like saying anything else so I am assuming that this good start to a blog and a good place to end my first post.
That is pretty much it, I am a miserable fellow which makes it hard to have any friends, I do have a few though. It also makes it hard to find someone who would want to be involved with you, so I am single and have been for a long while now. I also have no kids or pets, not even a house plant. I am considering a whole bunch of things though, I have this urge in me to just flee on most days. Nothing is really wrong, I just want to see and do other things then what I am doing. I am trying to temper this by making plans that make it seem as though I am preparing to have this great adventure after college.
So here are some of the things on my list for when I get my degree:
1. Visit Yellowstone
2. Visit Alaska
3. Visit Hawaii
2. Move away from California, at least to Arizona
3. Get a passport and go to Europe
4. Look into Moving to South America, possibly Argentina
5. Design and build my own house
Those are the ones that come to mind, I think that if I get most of them done I will manage to work out this antsy bug that is in me and finally be able to settle down and relax some where. Until then I plan to continue to attend college and take graphic design classes, and art classes to help quell it so I don't actually end up fleeing.
Well I don't feel like saying anything else so I am assuming that this good start to a blog and a good place to end my first post.
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